My mom is still sick. For someone who has committed my life to following Jesus that is hard for me. My mom is still sick. My mom loves Jesus and she is still sick. My mom prays daily and she is still sick. My mom loves others and she is still sick. That frustrates me. For a long time I was mad at God, mad that he hadn’t healed my faithful mother because if anyone deserves to be healed it is my mom (what every child thinks). I held this grudge that God didn’t love my family because he didn’t bring healing. Often I would withhold my love from God because he had with held his healing from my mom.
We went on vacation this last week and yet again she was sick almost all week. She has to take a lot medicine just to be able to function and my beautiful mother’s spirit is sometimes broken by her illness. It kills me. I physically hurt for her sometimes, I want to take the sickness from her but I can’t and I have come to believe God hates watching my mom sick as much as I do. This morning he confirmed that for me.
I am reading John Piper’s book 50 Reasons why Jesus Came and Died and reason # 18 is to heal us from moral and physical sickness. In part of the passage he says, “The way that Christ defeated death and disease was by taking them on himself and carrying them with him to the grave. One day all disease will be banished from God’s redeemed creation. There will be a new earth. We will have new bodies. Death will be swallowed up by everlasting life. And all who LOVE CHRIST will sing songs of thanks to the Lamb who was slain to redeem us from sin and death and disease.”
Let me say that this isn’t a new concept for me. I have known that when my mom passes that she will have a new body and will no longer be in pain but knowing Christ experienced that with her is a new thing for me. Knowing that on the Christ he felt the pain of sickness shows me a love that can’t be competed with. Jesus knows my moms pain and he hates that. He wants her to be well as much as we all do and because of that he took on disease at the cross and bleed for the sick. His heart bleeds for your sickness as much as it does my mom but take heart Jesus has defeated it. Jesus has taken your sickness so that one day you can pain free and praising the one who took your pain.