Its been a long time since I made myself sit down to write. Nothing really exciting has happened except that life has been busy, time has passed, weeks got filled, we attended a funeral, I overbooked myself, was extremely late to a few appointments (ok thats nothing new), and somehow managed to forget to make time for my writing, although I managed to make plenty of time for reruns of law and order. Sadly enough the thing that brought me back to the keyboard was Taylor Swift’s new album. In case you aren’t a teenage girl, or woman in her twenties who hasn’t quite grown up, her new album came out a few weeks ago. It is filled with wonderful revenge songs and hidden meanings, most of which I imagine are about Taylor Lautner. Although she still has a good dose of growing up to do the girl can write which reminded me that enjoyment was why I began writing in the first place.
So I’m back sitting in a coffee shop putting my thoughts on paper, drinking tea, and wishing coffee didn’t hurt my stomach.
When I was considering how to raise money for Africa one of my ideas was to sell a little book of letters from Jesus, things I felt like he was speaking to me in a really rough time. Of course I wrote half of the book and didn’t finish in time for the trip but for some reason I wanted to post one today. Maybe because I don’t have much to say but mostly because I am sick of hearing myself talk, sometimes you just need to hear from God. I know this isn’t actually written by Jesus but i’d like to think he would say the same thing to me today.
Dear beloved,
You have felt so far away these past few days. When pain comes you throw up familiar walls of stone around your heart but you forget that I am your protector. Blocking out the world will not change the fact that it is evil and turning your heart on humanity will not make a difference. The world doesn’t need another bitter heart it needs a light. Love, we are in a beautiful battle and the enemy has some cruel tactics. He might make dying strikes on my children but they are nothing I can’t handle. You will want to doubt that I am sovereign. You will want to doubt that I can make even this beautiful. You will want to doubt who I am but just remember I have always remained faithful. Remember that through the ages I have never faltered. Draw near to me, don’t believe the lies that you need to do this alone. Don’t believe that I will let you down like everyone else. I will never let you down. I am not asking you to surrender to your enemy, only to me. Surrender to my plan and let me tear down the bricks. Brink by brick I will show you a new tomorrow and together we can conquer your demons. Together we will protect your valuable heart. But for now just rest in me, rest in my strength and protection, and rest in the confidence of who I am. Never forget that it is ok to hurt and I am not bothered by your questions just keep in mind I can heal you. I will write tomorrow but for now remember these words.
Forever yours,
Lord of Protection
Psalms 12:5, 32:7-8,
5“Because of the devastation of the afflicted, because of the groaning of the needy,
Now I will arise,” says the LORD; “I will set him in the safety for which he longs. “
7 You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.
